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2010 is the worst

As I am writing this blog, rains from the clouds fall so as tears from my eyes..

It seemed that everybody is busy even the blog world guys, no recent and new posts lately.

The title is pretty straight forward. 2010 is the worst.

Every problem and burden were thrown all this year,

financial woes, some personal matters and being sero-converted. I know that I'm a strong person, I usually hurdle all of my problems by myself and I'm proud to say that I can really surpass them out.

Change is the only constant thing in this world, it seems that I can't no longer handle things just the way I did before. As what I learned from the Empowerment seminar,

to lessen your burdens share them, take the risk of letting other know what you feel for they might help you out.

ok, share my problems and burdens, which I really normally don't do.
I tried sharing them and yes, It helped but It's still me... me, who can fix these things.

nasa diyos ang awa nasa tao ang gawa

now, I don't know what to do.. Im tired of crying, my Lacrimal glands are numb na.


Im slowly giving up.. I can't see any reason for me to hold on tight...

13 comments:

Nimmy { Thursday, July 8, 2010 at 1:24:00 AM GMT+8 }
awwww. hugggs.

everything happens for a reason. if you need someone to listen, andito ako :)
TheChemistryGuy { Thursday, July 8, 2010 at 1:55:00 AM GMT+8 }
i cant understand the value or reason behind these.. :(
Jesse { Thursday, July 8, 2010 at 8:31:00 AM GMT+8 }
Z, I'm not trying to be that "superguy in the neighborhood" naman, cause I can't but if you think you have problems that you feel you want to share, I'm always here to listen and maybe I could help you. I may not know you personally but it doesn't matter, I'm still here to help you. That's my definition of true friendship. I just want you to know that.
Always,
Jesse
canonista { Thursday, July 8, 2010 at 9:12:00 AM GMT+8 }
Chemistryguy... Everything will fall in place, someday. As the famous song goes, Someday We'll know. For now, hold on and pray. Believe that there is one powerful being behind everything that we do, just listen carefully with your heart. Believe, and you will see.

Let's have dinner one of these days.
PinoyPoz { Thursday, July 8, 2010 at 11:53:00 AM GMT+8 }
The reality is, you are still more fortunate than some. With all the "problems" thrown at you, don't forget to count your blessings.

Some of your "problems" might not even be problems... they may just be challenges... challenges that just may help you grow and learn. Focus on how the challenges improve you.
Juan de la Cruz { Thursday, July 8, 2010 at 9:14:00 PM GMT+8 }
i've always believed that we don't get problems that we cannot handle or hurdle. these are challenges thrown our way that are meant to make us stronger. yes, it's true that one needs to share if only to unburden oneself but at the end of the day, it's you who will meet life's trials and hopefully change things, if needed.
TheChemistryGuy { Friday, July 9, 2010 at 1:15:00 AM GMT+8 }
thanks for giving the hand, i appreciate it..
TheChemistryGuy { Friday, July 9, 2010 at 1:16:00 AM GMT+8 }
Jesse, i dont know how to talk about it eh..kaya nahihirapan din ako.
TheChemistryGuy { Friday, July 9, 2010 at 1:17:00 AM GMT+8 }
Canonista, M told me na may overnight daw jan sa Sunday? am i right?
TheChemistryGuy { Friday, July 9, 2010 at 1:21:00 AM GMT+8 }
PinoyPoz, yeah thanks.. im trying to and always see to it na may lesson learned for every hurdle. the thing is, mejo nahihirapan lang ako coz it's a balance of priorities eh
TheChemistryGuy { Friday, July 9, 2010 at 1:23:00 AM GMT+8 }
JDC, parang major breakthrough to para sakin. one of the most difficult part of my life..
davidrockens { Sunday, July 11, 2010 at 2:49:00 PM GMT+8 }
so if 2010 is the worst what can you say about twenty-eleven or twenty sixteen

my aunt is diagnosed with leukemia and she doesn't know anything about i, heck 1 to 6 months the medical gods proclaimed.

the conspiracy of everyone she knows was glaring, her siblings to her former boarders and good friends.

i always believe that a person has the first right and first knowledge with what to do with his life. the case with my aunt after seeing her bubbly and happy last Sunday (every week may handaan sa bahay at dumadating ang mga dati nyang kakilala) has a tremendous pressure with some my beliefs about life and death and freewill.

she has the right to know pero to what end...my cruel side tells me to burst everyone's bubble, so everything could rightly falls in place. Pero seeing her very happy to see lots of people around her is really priceless. I folded and just watched on the corner. This is one journey I don't know about.

To say my two cent, won't help you because your journey is one journey i also don't know about.

I guess we are all mere spectators of each and everyone life.

If there are no reason right now, don't struggle to find one. At least marerelieve yung pressure. Sabi nga sa isang research, the more we seek the meaning of happiness, the more we won't be happy. So be moderately happy.

Go back to the basics. Gawin mo yung mga bagay na ginagawa mo dati, lalo na nung bata ka. I bet you never tried counting the leaves of a tree..try it. be crazy. it seems walang kwenta pero at the end of the day, andami talagang bagay ang di natin magagawa.

since kumpleto naman ang 5 senses mo, go out and grab the child inside of you and just wonder about many things..just wonder..don't think. the best solution sometimes is already out there..all you have to do is to wonder.

And lastly don't absorbed too much information about life, what people are saying or doing, and take it against you, against who you are and against what would you become sa future.
The Chemistry Guy { Sunday, July 11, 2010 at 3:06:00 PM GMT+8 }
david, the post was an emotional burst out. imm the kind of the person who is secretive and never learns to share feelings. so maybe what you read is like an integration of what i felt way before till the very moment of writing the post. of course i wont let anything nor anyone hinder from me being happy. anyway, hey bud thanks for dropping by. :)