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Showing posts with label burden. Show all posts
Showing posts with label burden. Show all posts
2010 is the worst
As I am writing this blog, rains from the clouds fall so as tears from my eyes..
It seemed that everybody is busy even the blog world guys, no recent and new posts lately.
The title is pretty straight forward. 2010 is the worst.
Every problem and burden were thrown all this year,
financial woes, some personal matters and being sero-converted. I know that I'm a strong person, I usually hurdle all of my problems by myself and I'm proud to say that I can really surpass them out.
Change is the only constant thing in this world, it seems that I can't no longer handle things just the way I did before. As what I learned from the Empowerment seminar,
ok, share my problems and burdens, which I really normally don't do.
I tried sharing them and yes, It helped but It's still me... me, who can fix these things.
now, I don't know what to do.. Im tired of crying, my Lacrimal glands are numb na.
Im slowly giving up.. I can't see any reason for me to hold on tight...
It seemed that everybody is busy even the blog world guys, no recent and new posts lately.
The title is pretty straight forward. 2010 is the worst.
Every problem and burden were thrown all this year,
financial woes, some personal matters and being sero-converted. I know that I'm a strong person, I usually hurdle all of my problems by myself and I'm proud to say that I can really surpass them out.
Change is the only constant thing in this world, it seems that I can't no longer handle things just the way I did before. As what I learned from the Empowerment seminar,
to lessen your burdens share them, take the risk of letting other know what you feel for they might help you out.
ok, share my problems and burdens, which I really normally don't do.
I tried sharing them and yes, It helped but It's still me... me, who can fix these things.
nasa diyos ang awa nasa tao ang gawa
now, I don't know what to do.. Im tired of crying, my Lacrimal glands are numb na.
Im slowly giving up.. I can't see any reason for me to hold on tight...
Russian Roulette
Russian Roulette - Rihanna
I was alone in my post, working the whole day.. i decided to isolate myself
for the day so i can somehow escape from stress and tension.. I decided to play and listen on my ipod and stick to one song, Rihanna's Russian Roulette.
It's a pretty heavy song, i mean.. message of the song will strike it's listeners.
Now, i add this to my favorites.
Russian roulette is a game wherein you put a single bullet on a revolver, point it on your head and try to fire it.. lucky if no bullet comes out. you're dead if it does. scary game huh...
As the song runs, my burden lightens as my tears starts to drop..
yeah, i look stupid.. crying while working in front of a pc..
it took around 3 hours for me to settle down..
now, burden's a bit lighter than before.. thanks to Rihanna. :D
Ta!
As my life flashes before my eyes
I’m wondering will I, ever see another sunrise?
So many won’t get the chance to say goodbye
But it’s too late to pick up the value of my life
I was alone in my post, working the whole day.. i decided to isolate myself
for the day so i can somehow escape from stress and tension.. I decided to play and listen on my ipod and stick to one song, Rihanna's Russian Roulette.
It's a pretty heavy song, i mean.. message of the song will strike it's listeners.
Now, i add this to my favorites.
Russian roulette is a game wherein you put a single bullet on a revolver, point it on your head and try to fire it.. lucky if no bullet comes out. you're dead if it does. scary game huh...
As the song runs, my burden lightens as my tears starts to drop..
yeah, i look stupid.. crying while working in front of a pc..
it took around 3 hours for me to settle down..
now, burden's a bit lighter than before.. thanks to Rihanna. :D
Ta!
My Pillow is too wet
I just can't stop my eyes from tearing right now...
I'm crying a river. I don't know why, maybe all the burdens, frustrations and disappointment since I was a child erupted all of a sudden.
From a famous Science law, For every action, there will be an equal or opposite reaction.
Like a gun, a finger must trigger for it to fire.
The week was pretty aloof with me, Weekend is not really getting me off.
Even my iPod can't ease what i am feeling.. this is getting worse.
I'm a kind of guy who doesn't really say "i'm sorry" and "please" and maybe that's what makes
my strong personality. So when somebody heard it from me, rest assured I mean it.. but when it comes to a point that these words are mistreated, Simply... no more "sorries" and "pleases".
been crying for 2hours... and it's heavy, im just keeping it silent so no one can hear my rumble.
even Lady GaGa's Bad Romance can't stop me....
From this depression am having, i thought of confessing my status with one of my ex's whom i saw online in ym, i told him everything.. everything went like a beach of tears. after a bit of talk,
"I'll commit myself in helping you..."
a pound of hard relief rushed through my virus filled veins, which I've been longing for..
tomorrow, a good crepe and movie is up.
good luck with puffy eyes.
Sorry, I'm just too Vulnerable.
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