The Chemistry of Sero-conversion... being HIV positive.

I mentioned in my previous post that me and my beloved "ex" is working under the same roof.
Yes, we're office mates. Been with the company for 2years now and he's new, 3 months or so. I said to him to work here since the grasses here are really greener. (California Gurls?) lols.

He entrusted me his belongings including money. I still treasure that. He still trusts me.
His shift is early morning and I'm on the mid. When he's about to clock out, it's my clock in.

One day, he asked for his entrusted money and said to meet in the fire exit. We're just 1 floor away. Fire exit, hmm. I know what you are thinking. I never did that. I gave him his money and surprisingly he a box of cupcakes with icings and toppings were seen.

How sweet. The cup cakes were yummmy.

Will he still be that way if he knew I'm positive. I don't think so.
Well. So far, we're friends/officemates. That's it.
No expectations or anything.


Ta!

I saw my ex a while ago.. i was on my way home, he rang my phone...
"nasa likod mo ko", i turned back and saw him. tsssss..

i saw his cute face and his not so astounding built.
he's now my officemate by the way.

i said to myself for the Nth and log'th time.. "move on na! move on na!"
several years after our relationship and until now, i cant conclude that i have MOVED ON. everytime we talk and see each other, i wanna do it again...

why not? simply because we choose to.. things now are different.
especially my sero-status, he doesnt know about it. baka magbago pa tingin nya sakin.

he was my longest relationship, a close relationship.
we parted ways because of personal issues and surprisingly not by any third party.

I still love him, and i know he still loves me.. but everything's different.
mabigat sa dibdib.

One of the most remembered persons in my life.

Hope he sees someone that will take care of him.
better keep my promise to move on, surely it will take time to heal.

enough story.. iiyak nanaman ako.

Ta!